Crushes are indeed beautiful…
They made you believe that love could be magnificent even if it’s only you who could feel this magic.
Sometimes.. we have no idea what is the feeling on the other end, still there is that sweetest caress of the thoughts of that special someone and here you want to dance on the rhythm your heart plays..
The only torture you suffer; you are all overwhelmed and consumed by this emotion called love.
And the funniest part is that other person doesn’t even know that you are head over heels for him. His each and every action affects you like anything and you just can’t help it though.
The way you blush when he smiles at u. those violins playing in the background of course (winks).
In that very moment you own him as imagination can take u anywhere..
He is another reason that i got to show up to the sports club daily, and nothing is cheesy until it helps u keep your fitness on the mark.
Its just the other day I saw this cute guy approaching towards the gymnasium. Yes yes, a girl like me who never finds anybody worth giving a thought finds him quite decent and kinda my types.
At first, I didn’t give it much attention, It happens when your life just going through a mess that you can’t even figure out what your heart wants so didn’t I.
We happened to cross ways a few times and all I could do is to stare at him like an idiotic dumb ass and must say this is something silliest I have ever get indulged into.
So just today I told all this to my best friend and what she did?? No doubt the evergreen advice you get from your friends on such issues. “you should talk to him yaar. at least just say Hii, she snapped.”
And there I was thinking that I SHOULD START GYMMING, I NEED TO STAY FIT(“.. and stay close to him”, my inner voice teased me). So not surprisingly I was at the gym the very next day. There was no such name I have given to my feelings yet I could watch him all that while without getting bored and sometimes he catches me though and many times it turned to be very awkward on my part.
Now it starts seeming like a part of my everyday schedule to go there, wait for him to come and just to watch him from a far, every little detail about him is overwhelming and cute.
The way his fingers dance into his hair leaving my heart skips a beat every time and that intense look on his face while working out.
And when he just stops and turns his eyes on me in between a conversation with someone. (Stop doing that please! I hate being caught while watching you for no reason.)
The way his hand moves when he tries to explain something. And when his lips make that beautiful curve. Boy i know i’m ruined. His smile is just too infectious to keep myself fall for it.
Black suits him though, but that bright red tee he wore today it made my dream world all colorful.
I start feeling uneasy when he misses to come even for a single day. A single glance at his face can make my day. He is more like a drug to my crazy insane heart and i’m nothing but a druggy all consumed by his charms.
To watch him smiling always makes me go weak in the knees.
Finally, this day came! We got to share a word, actually thanks to him, he initiated while watching me struggling with those deadly heavy weighted plates. He came forward and helped me out. And I was the happiest soul on this earth that day.
We get to talk sometimes; it feels great on having all his attention on me during that while. At least for a few moments I own him!
He is generous and respectful and this is what makes him special and different from every other creepy guy I’ve ever bumped into.
I didn’t really have known that he is too shy to make even an eye contact while talking. It was damn cute.
The alone moments when I often catch myself smiling like fools and the reason is YOU!!
They say when you meet someone and it just clicks you on your mind, it’s never a coincidence. And, in your case I don’t really want you to be just another crush, I wish to take it further. I so want to get a fair chance to let you know how I feel about you, for once or may be you could turn out to be my forever. Every day, each moment I want you to know that how much I adore you! Because LOVE is just too underrated to show you what I feel for you.
My friends curse me every day for not being courageous enough to snap it on your face that I love you like crazy.
May be I could or maybe I won’t ever.
To love and get loved back by the same person has never been ideal and it should never be.
I can watch you smiling from a far n still be happy.. I can wish for Your brightest future without being able to be a part of it.
Because I am way too damaged to fall out of love again. And because I’ve decided to keep falling for u everyday.
Because love is just not about having all d way..!!
your secret admirer!!
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